It's Getting Harder and Harder..

It's been exactly three weeks since I last seen Mr. Pavia and I'm trying to ignore the time frame. Tama sya, five years can go by quickly, but not seeing him feels like an eternity. Why? Why? (OA execution, arms out stretched to the sky, clenched fist, shouting, WHHHAY?) Why are we waiting for gadawful one year, eh we can be together now? As in bukas na bukas din?

Eh kasi:
1. We both have to save. If I may quote Juday, "the wedding is easy, it's the marriage that you have to work things through".. or something to that effect, basta yan ang take away ko.
2. Corny man, kung corny, we've only known each other for almost 17 months, there are so many things we still need to learn about one another. Tapos, we've been physically together for only 3 months total. I beleive in long engagements (yuk, but true).
3. There are things I need to learn before I settle down, para I can say naman na no regrets, I've exhausted everything I wanted to do in life before I settle down. I know, he's not getting any younger (and so am I), but I have to craft other means to potentially earn in the US of A, paano kung walang kumuha sa akin as a media practicioner, aber? Gusto ko naman matutong sumide-line. Kunwari: a. Gusto ko matutong mag tahi; b. Gusto kong matutong gumawa ng web site; c. Gusto kong mag-turo (as in College professor, dawg); d. Gusto kong bumait, pero di ko magawa! Ching! There are several things that I want to learn before I dive and swim into marriage land. Self growth, ba?

Actually, yun lang naman ang top three reasons ko. As long as I haven't achieved those, I do not have a right to complain. I'm not complaining, I'm just airing out my sentiments (ano daw ang difference?) Well, airing out my sentiments make me focus on the prize. It reminds me that there are valid reasons for all these sacrifices, because in the end, mas masarap ang prutas pag hindi hinog sa pilit. Apir!